aged

Today, i came across this web which “age” photos. and so excitedly, i began to convert a few of them, especially the ones that we took at the fishing trip recently- reminds me of some old jetty with some kampong fishermen/women.

haha, im no expert at photoshop, don’t even own that program… but kudos to this website. makes me want to start my own art project!

http://labs.wanokoto.jp/olds

past

rain

wow, really unconventional and amazing! definitely brings choral presentation to a next level! looking forward to watching ONE’s performances!

Choir: Perpetuum Jazzile

rebel saved by God

It’s been a while. Too many things happened. Most of the things are what i term as “same-same”, no change. yet some are different. then again “same-same” might not be a good thing as well. i feel more distant than ever frm ppl, and it’s partly my fault for not making enough effort. yet, i know i can depend on the grace of God. school’s starting! can’t believe the months of holidays gone just like that. i think many people can agree that there’s a sense of “relieve” yet a whole 3/4 of me says “i wld rather go on having my long holiday!” new priorities. and this time it’s got to be seriously executed!

one more thing i discovered. i think ive nvr really acknowledged or seen myself as a person having a problem w authority and submission. ive nvr felt more like a rebel than ever. hahah, ya, im a scumbag. there. and if not for the preserving grace of God, i would have been seriously wasted and ive got a feeling i know how i would be like, and i don’t even want to begin to think abt it.

“edge” (subscript) “2″ “OH”

The cry of my heart, is to be Holy.

To be set apart for you, O God.

I struggle to be pure, yet every portion of my mind screams smth else.

and tonight, i just see how judgemental, how impatient, how arrogant i am.

and it boils down to smth that im struggling with again. Purity. was so hit by it during camp. still hit by it… the need of a Saviour. for without Him, i would perish and burn…but because i have God, there is no longer any condemnation.

how to be still and not struggle so much. sigh. envious, tired, frustrated, impatient, irritated yet hopeful? im going to slp. good night.

church camp was so good. God is so good.

my prayer

Before the Son we’ll stand,
Made faultless through the Lamb;
Believing hearts find promised grace—
Salvation comes.

Indeed, in Christ, there is no longer any condemnation. thank you Jesus, for grace so freely given. bring me back to the heart of worship, because it’s nvr abt me anyway. it’s all about you. in Jesus’s name i pray, amen.

Fluffy me

I feel tired and fluffy even though i don’t really know what ‘fluffy’ means. (or maybe i define ‘fluffy’ a differently)

I am fluffy.

There’s still a hesitation, holding back.

Why is commitment so tough,

(and i truly tasted the cost of discipleship)

yet i know that obedience matters more.

Encouraged by passionate hearts to serve,

I pray God will mould my heart into one.

Counting the days till resignation, thinking about matriculation, fearful of the preparation.

For now,

I am fluffy and Im trying to love people.

Eric Whitacre’s Virtual Choir

wow! Eric Whitacre’s starting a project and coming up with a virtual choir on Youtube! haha, how cool is that!

all you have to do is, record yourself singing whichever part and send it in. if selected, he’s going to put all recordings together to form a full choir!

again, snaps for technology! (snap! snap!)

check this out!

http://www.youtube.com/user/EricWhitacresVrtlChr#user/C9AB23725E447C5F

Wonderful Saviour

The story behind the song “Wonderful Saviour” by Andy Bromley. (it’s going to be our upcoming church camp’s theme song.)

He shares about how ministry in his church was facing so much trouble, and how he was convicted about how much he has placed his trust and dependence on man instead of God. This sharing is so precious because many a times when people walk us through difficult paths, we become so dependent on them that we forget that truly, God is the only one who can fill us and make us whole again.

and this is especially precious and close to heart because of all the things that have been going on around me, whether its happening to pple whom i love, or even myself. So today i declare that “Jesus is my Saviour.” He will save me from the valleys, from the deserts. Call upon the name of the Lord today, and be saved. Amen.

i love “ketchup” :)

ketchup for the previous wk was great! sometimes i wish i could that every day. yea, run arnd playing frisbee… sit down for a good dinner…

frisbee!

the colours!

the batchmates- rioHC

you drive me CRAZY!

im ecstatic!

driving:

this week, i started my practical driving lessons. it’s so fun and hilarious! REALLY! haha my first lesson was the ultimate man when i mounted the curb! the instructor was like laughing his head off. (didn’t make the turn fast enough.) nonetheless it was so scary driving in the circuit. (insert narrow bends and loads of cars.) so i was practically crawling round and round the circuit clockwise. (like a teddy bear!) TODAY, was my second lesson! even more exhilarating! it started off slow though, like i did 6-7 rounds of anti-clockwise (still in the circuit) the BEST PART WAS THAT I GOT TO DRIVE OUT ONTO THE ROAD !(but it was round and round the same route) it’s super funny cause i was accelerating (too fast i think) kept tailgating the L plate manual person in front of me, almost wanted to overtake, then the instructor was shaking his head.. HAHHA! and and and, it was fun because the instructor commended me heehee, but he said i drive too fast. he was more serious than my first instructor though… it’s funny how i try to make conversation in the car. (so i suspect im the kind who will be able to chat even though im driving, then realise that im going to hit smth then go ahhhhhhh!)

yay! what a blast! im happy

work:

other than that, my office found replacements for my position!!!!!!!! i was so happy when i discovered abt that yesterday. but during the meeting i was given more responsibilities i.e. organize a bbq during the june hols, bring my class to the public lib.. so i cant even leave the job, or maybe i feel really bad if i leave the job. AND though i subtly hinted that “yay, got new pple means i can run..” in a jokingly manner… my supervisor gave me that “ohno, you can’t leave halfway” exclamation.(HAHHA! i think i express myself too much in wanting to leave the job because my eyes would always gleam when i hear abt pple coming for interviews and i do it so shamelessly in front of the sup. hahahah!) soooooo… roar! and at first i thought that this was God’s ticket for me to run.. cause i rmb talking to the Dr. abt it that i will resign, but leave only when they find someone, and since it’s so difficult to look for someone to fill in the position, if it does happen, it cld be God’s escape route for me? BUT CHOTOMATEH… slow downnnnn.

even as i thought more abt how it’s already may and so so soon it’s going to be the end of june, and in june i practically only have to turn up on the days i dont have driving which are average 3-4 days every week. ( that’s like super little?) im half tempted to stick with it until the end of june as i promised, just so i know i ran the whole race. yet i know a greater reason and motivation would be to do it because i know im being obedient, im walking in God’s will.

so im still like that… complaining abt how much i want to quit but not quiting. must cut this part out. haaa…but then again, work is getting better i think. at least i try to control my temper, close one eye, open one eye…it’s the exam period.. so everyday just photocopy one paper, babysit kids for 1.5hr for each paper, sit there no need to do anything, go through paper, home sweet home. so… it’s so slacky.

ok, ive said so muchhhh. ive come to see how easy it is to just lose sight of God especially when”nth much is going on” and every day more or less becomes a routine. really. and yea, plenty is going on for me right now, because ive got a lot of unsettled issues to follow up on, to pray abt, yet sometimes im just sitting on them.

its like driving through a bend…hesitating whether to make the turn now or wait for awhile more, whether to release the accelerator and to step on the brake or just leave your foot on the accelerator… the bottomline is that smth must be down abt it. if not your car will just mount the curb. lol. it’s not even striking the curb but mounting you know? disaster.

well, all i can say is that i thank God for grace and redemption for fallible people like me.