I bow my knee, before Your throne,

I know my life is not my own.

I offer up a song of praise,

To bring You, pleasure Lord.

I seek the Giver, not the gift,

My only desire, is to lift,

You, high above, all earthly kings,

To bring You pleasure, Lord.

Hallelujah

Glory to the King.

amen indeed…to seek God, for who He is, to desire Him… not just what He can do, but Him. and to remember that that’s what im created for, a relationship with the Heavenly Father- i was made to praise Him, and He, to bless me and show me how great His love is…what can i say, but i want to seek God, i want to just pray and not stop. I guess this is what love feels like…and i thank God that this is His will for each and every one of us.

Inspired by my corner of the sky, i decide to do a post on this as well! Gosh! I honestly can’t wait for this sunday afternoon’s Mad Hatter’s tea party! (even though i have a psychology paper the next day, and even right now as i blog, im so not done studying for psych boo!)

anyway, while studying a chapter on psychological disorders, guess what? i chanced upon this paragraph, and here is what it said:

The Mad Hatter, from Lewis Caroll’s Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland. History provides numerous examples of psychosis caused by toxic chemicals. Caroll’s Mad Hatter character is modeled after an occupational disease of the eighteenth and ninteenth centuries. In that era, hat makers were heavily exposed to mercury used in the preparation of felt. Consequently, many suffered brain damage and became psychotic, or “mad” (Kety, 1979)

So, what do ya say? Mad Hatter’s mad because of that? gosh, so sad! anyway, im going to the party as the cheshire cat! (a black and white one though, since im infamous for being, you know, colour blind oh well, hope i do get to take plenty of photos, even though i think i can’t stay at the party too long…



The Cheshire Cat

too cute isn’t it? heee can’t wait. okay, back to studying!

say the word, and i will sing for You, O Lord.

Indeed that can be my only response as I walk through these 3 weeks of testing. As much as i thought abt many things, abt people, how to love and encourage them… i realised that im inadequate to do so. But i can hope in the Lord, to work mightily in the lives of those whom He has planted His hope in. And as for me, Lord, help me to surrender my struggles daily, to hold on to the faith, and to live for you, so that through me, God, You will be glorified.

Im truly humbled by what we learnt in class today: about work.

This is what i came away from class thinking:

that our God, almighty and awesome, is a worker. God is a worker, and he enjoys watching me work/ study. Here’s the crunch! Who is man that God should be mindful of him, to place him above all the living creatures in this land, to put man on earth to “cultivate his land” as Dr Chew puts it. Who am i that God should be mindful of me, to put me in a position to be able to work, for his glory. what an awesome privilege it is.

well, i can’t help but think that i shld have responded in a more godly manner with my previous job. but yes, i pray that this would remain in my heart even as i go through school this wk. it’s 3 weeks to the examinations. and, yea, school has been such a “hamster in a wheel” experience, with nothing in particular tt i looked forward to… monotonous.but i guess, it’s not suppose to be like this. i pray tt my eyes will be unveiled to the reason why im in school.

When i consider the work of Your fingers

the sun and the star

the land and the sea.

i start to wonder Almighty Creator,

just why You would ever take thought, of me.

Awhile ago, I’ve been guilty of feeling grieved over an observable division in a community that I’ve grown to be part of. grieved because of the imperfections and undercurrents, even more so because of lack of transparency and openness within.

Today i’m truly encouraged and rebuked by the word, of a whole need to be humble. and that with humility, seeking God’s face and repentance, comes renewing and healing of broken communities. (2 Chron 7:14)

Too often we’ve been bystanders, pointing at imperfections which are so evident, yet we missed the point. Even in a more macro view, sometimes the church has pointed at the imperfections of society without realising that change begins with themselves. Similarly, I’ve forgotten the essence of this promise.

Even as i long for healing and unity in this little community of mine, there should be no need to feel helpless or despair, (yes they will come at times, but there’s no need for them.) My part, our part, is to humbly turn to God and pray. pray. allow God’s Holy spirit to shine His light upon me, upon us, so that we’ll still be salt and light even in difficult circumstances. wait, be patient and we can EXPECT renewing and healing. (man’s responsibility vs God’s sovereignty)

im quite amused by how one by one, God has led me to discover the right attitudes and responses i should take towards dealing with all of the struggles im facing with, be it through people or the word. surely it’s part His loving plan. and i’m ever more so grateful for this especially when sometimes I can be so full of myself and my thoughts that I don’t even know where to begin looking for the answers.

the Lord has promised good to me

His word, my hope secures.

He will my shield, and portion be

as long as life endures.

My chains are gone, I’ve been set free

My God, My saviour,has ransomed me

and like a flood, His mercy reigns,

unending love, amazing grace.

Today, i recognize that i’ve been set free by grace and i pray that his word will be implanted so firmly in my heart, that whatever happens, i won’t be tempted to turn away, that whatever happens, i know God’s promises are true, dependable… and that alone is sufficient for me.

finally, after a whole 8 mth of rest and holidays, school’s here.

can’t believe it but better believe it, adapt, and prepare to study.

sigh. on some nights i just feel like going to bed early, so that when i wake up, it’s a new day, a better day…

so i don’t foresee writing so much anymore. so, good night! til tmr- a better day, perhaps.

Jesus, take the wheel

take it from my hand,

cause i can’t do this, on my own

I’m letting go, so give me one more chance

save me from this road i’m on…

so, i passed my driving test today. (1st attempt!) finally, after all the lessons and the travelling to ubi in the mornings, all the demoralising situations where i mounted kerbs, knocked down a pole, strike kerbs, obstructed traffic on roads… and let me tell you smth ok? really only by grace from God that i could pass today.

firstly, i striked the kerb because i reversed too much for “directional change” but i wasn’t penalised for it at all. only a stern look and a “why you reverse so much for what?” secondly, i got the worse test route ever… the one that faces the heaviest traffic and biggest road, and and i wld have to remain on the left (say bye to ‘lame’ (lane) discipline) then filter into a different lane because of bus lane timings, all of that within a short distance. (thank God for the old taxi driver that gave way) hhaa, and the tester got frustrated halfway because  i think i asked too many silly questions. but at the end of it, i scored 18pts. 20 would have constituted me a failure.

anyway, if you didnt understand all of those, the bottomline is that my God is good. and i can count on Him to keep me safe on the roads. ( it’s quite a huge responsibility i think… thye made us watch this gory video abt consequences of irresponsible driving.) praise God!

i’m really happy! hopefully i will get to drive the car a bit before school starts on tues. and ya, perhaps driving a few months before i start attempting to drive other pple… hahah, i think driving on the highway is going to be interesting.