Cherie

longing

cherie — Tue, 08 Feb 2011 06:37:21 +0000

Lord, may I dwell in your shelter, may i dwell in Your presence, for nothing satisfies the human soul, than being with You. This is my prayer today:

Still my soul be still, and do not fear though winds of change may rage tomorrow.
God is at your side, no longer dread the fires of unexpected sorrow.

Chorus:
God You are my God, and I will trust in You and not be shaken.
Lord of peace renew a steadfast spirit within me to rest in You alone.

Still my soul be still, do not be moved by lesser lights and fleeting shadows.
Hold onto His ways with shield of faith against temptations flaming arrows.

Still my soul be still, do not forsake the Truth you learned in the beginning.
Wait upon the Lord and hope will rise as stars appear when day is dimming.

Words and Music by Keith & Kristyn Getty & Stuart Townend

Finale

cherie — Thu, 02 Sep 2010 11:40:54 +0000

wow, almost 3 months without much updating, i suspect im getting tired of blogging. mmm, i haven’t been journaling much too. sometimes i think about things like, “what if i lose my memory one day” and i have nothing to rely on to find out who i am…

anyway, i guess i kind of stopped because i think for a moment, there hasn’t been any “songs of joy” in my heart. and yes, i didn’t want to write just any other complain or emotional blogpost like how i used to. i want to write something that’s glorifying to God. something that’s genuine. i know i can continue to glorify God even when im hurting, and rightfully so, because God deserves every praise in any circumstance. but perhaps if its not genuine, then, i don’t want to pretend.

we seem to write in circles and never straight to the point because really, we are afraid that the world will judge us from the things we write, we are afraid to bare our hearts and the state they are in (esp. wounded ones), i don’t know. I think i’m one of these people. and i realised that sometimes because i keep these things to myself, that i find myself overwhelmed with emotions; maybe that’s why i find even the little little things in this world, emotionally draining.

so i’ve decided. this is probably going to be my last post in this blog. it really saw me through secondary 2 till now i believe. but for now, it’s time to move on, write elsewhere, perhaps more purposefully, more honestly.

to end this post and perhaps the last sharing in this blog, today i realised something very wonderful.

i realised that my dad is quite a sweet man. firstly, i was telling him how much i wanted to eat sushi, and he went to buy sushi for “tea” today. secondly, he heard how grandma was saying that she likes to eat unagi, and he remembered, and bought it for grandma as well.

just as i was thinking about how my dad’s quite a nice man, this crept into my mind. “If you, then, even though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask Him” (Matthew 7:11)

yes my dad’s a nice man, but God is greater than all man. and surely, God’s love surpasses all things. and i guess for now, i can be joyful about this.

i have been thinking about this song for the past few weeks, it went away… but as i thought abt this, it came to mind again.

He Cares For Me:

My God is far greater, than words can make known

Exalted and Holy, He reigns on His throne.

In infinite splendour, He rules over all

Yet He feeds the poor sparrows, and He knows when they fall.

His power is great, and will ever endure,

His wisdom is peaceable, gentle and pure.

But greater than all these glories i see,

Is the glorious promise that He cares for me.

He rides the wild heavens, He strides to the sea

The high mountains tremble, to hear His decree,

His voice with great thundering, sounds from above

But to His own children, He whispers His love.

What a majestic yet tender portrayal of God. And sometimes i wonder why i allow myself to sin, even though God’s truths are so real and precious. Thank you God for your love even though i probably don’t deserve it very much!

So this is it. Au Revoir!

cherie — Thu, 03 Jun 2010 13:29:57 +0000

there’s so much on my mind that i have no idea where to begin. stuck with a physical condition. everyday’s a different symptom, a different ache; they come and go, some choose to stay, others decide to hop on etc. and being only human, you end up in confusion, a little distress, definitely not stable emotionally. i know each day i crave more and more attention from people who live with me; sometimes i get it, other times i probably won’t. you know the feeling of being a kid or a baby? you want people to baby you, to hold you and tell you that everything is going to be ok.

and i know i can find that in God. Abba father who called me His own, who loves me very much. i know.

it’s tough i guess, to go through a phase of life where you’re completely helpless and zero…and as i think about what’s ahead, the things i have to do, and looking at the way my body functions each day… i don’t know how things are going to work out. at times, i feel so tempted to call it quits.

and it’s in such times where i need God’s grace to come reign in me…

awake

cherie — Tue, 20 Apr 2010 19:48:55 +0000

sigh, i don’t like to be awake so late in the night… i slept at 10pm and have been up since 1am in the morning. it’s 3 now… and im having such a huge trouble trying to go back to sleep. sigh. maybe its the flu… or maybe the effects from the coffee that i took in the late afternoon the yesterday. but i really should try to go back to sleep.

Cares Chorus

cherie — Tue, 13 Apr 2010 02:40:02 +0000

I cast all my cares upon You.

I lay all my burdens, down at Your feet

And every time, i don’t know

What to do,

I just cast all my cares upon You.

A song i learned during the span of time at BANG internship. Indeed, today, im learning to cast all my cares upon the lord for He cares for me. What a wonderful truth to stand upon even as the worries of the day start to downpour! Praise God

phileo?

cherie — Fri, 09 Apr 2010 03:48:56 +0000

mmms, came across this song, “I’ll stand by you” originally sang by The Pretenders and later Carrie Underwood and Glee… etc. the lyrics are pretty… well… cheesy, i guess? and i actually think that it’s quite an “idealistic” piece because, it’s tough to say a lot of the lyrics (afterall, i believe that only God can satisfy all of our inner needs, only God can make us whole, feel completely secure…only God can be there at every single moment).

Nevertheless, i believe in phileo, the kind of love between friends that God has made possible, divinely appointed; so, it’s a choice and commitment that i can make today that i will stand by people whom i hold close to my heart. yes, i absolutely can’t gurantee that no one’s gonna get hurt, but i know i can pray… and the power of prayer, the power of God and His love transcends all things, covers all sins, restores all broken relationships and heals all hurts.

I’ll Stand By You: The Pretenders/ Carrie Underwood

Oh, why you look so sad?

Tears are in your eyes,

Come on and come to me now.

Don’t be ashamed to cry,

let me see you through

Cause i’ve seen the dark side too.

When the night falls on you, you don’t know what to do,

Nothing you confess, could make me love you less…

I’ll stand by you, I’ll stand by you,

Won’t let nobody hurt you

I’ll stand by you

So, if you’re mad,get mad.

Don’t hold it all inside,

Come on and talk to me now

Hey, what you got to hide?

I get angry too,

Well, I’m a lot like you.

When you’re standing at the crossroads,

Don’t know which path to choose,

Let me come along,

Cause even if you’re wrong

(Chorus)

Consuming Fire

cherie — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 11:53:04 +0000

Indeed, there will be times when we let our emotions take control of us. And unless we abide in Jesus, even something natural like our emotions can come lead us down the wrong path. instantly, we feel as though we have a right to be upset, to talk abt it until it becomes gossip, to even sulk and cry over our frustrations. let us always remember to turn our eyes to Jesus. Because when we come into realisation that Jesus, died for us on the cross, loves us despite of how hateful sometimes we can be; when we remember this, there is really no right for us to be angry, no right for us to be bitter. So, this day, let’s rid ourselves of all malice and anger, and frustration. let’s put a stop to our sins for they spread like gangrene. Holy spirit, i ask this day, that you will come take over the bitterness within. Fill me anew i pray. In Jesus’s name, Amen.

There must be more than this

O breath of God, come breathe within

There must be more than this

Spirit of God, we wait for You

Fill us anew we pray, fill us anew we pray

Consuming fire, fan into flame

A passion for Your name

Spirit of God, fall in this place

Lord have Your way, Lord have Your way with us.

Come like the rushing wind,

Clothe us with power from on high

Come set the captives free,

Leave us abandoned to Your praise

Lord let Your glory fall, Lord let Your glory fall

Pour

cherie — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 11:13:05 +0000

Pour.

“like oil upon Your feet, like wine for You to drink, like water from my heart, I pour my love on You. If praise is like perfume, I’ll lavish mine on You. Til every drop is gone, I pour my love on You.”

Being busied by thousands of sch assignments and mid terms, projects; with ministries to serve in and pray about constantly; facing personal struggles of friendships and sorts; being misunderstood; etc. In times like these, just pour.

Pour our lives as an offering to Jesus. Til EVERY DROP IS GONE. only when we pour, then can we be filled with His grace and love, joy and peace… and strength to go through each day.

social acceptance

cherie — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 11:03:11 +0000

We like to feel accepted and have a sense of belonging in every community we are part of. Ever feel as though you are too “out” of something, to try to be “in” or fit “into” that thing again? Ever thought about how we are always constantly walking in and out of people’s lives? Notice that there are people around us who we treat as family, friends, aquaintances, strangers…

Why the stratification? Why do humans feel a need to be part of an “inner circle” or “loop” (a friend of mine termed it this way)? are we created with this need so that we may understand who we are, and who He is, and how much He loves us? ( since most of creation can be explained by this… hmm, have yet to think this through) or…could it be attributed to the theory of “social construct” and how society makes us this way… always wanting to be part of a clique, be in the loop. and there’s an evolutionary theory behind this i suppose, but i prefer not to consider this direction…so why does the issue of ” social acceptance” affect us so much… i think “humans are social animals” is simply not a good enough explanation, but i find it hard to explain otherwise.

don’t get me wrong for im not pointing to any matter in particular…but i find that this is something i struggle constantly, and am still struggling with it. so if anyone would consider research in this field and issue, please feel free to contact me. then again, i always believe, not everything can be answered from a purely academic standpoint.

“Nutting” much.

cherie — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 06:37:37 +0000

Dried Roasted Cashews, Almonds, Peanuts with Black California Raisins

50gm.

i wonder if people get sore throats from eating too much of these. tempted to buy a few more packs.