there’s so much on my mind that i have no idea where to begin. stuck with a physical condition. everyday’s a different symptom, a different ache; they come and go, some choose to stay, others decide to hop on etc. and being only human, you end up in confusion, a little distress, definitely not stable emotionally. i know each day i crave more and more attention from people who live with me; sometimes i get it, other times i probably won’t. you know the feeling of being a kid or a baby? you want people to baby you, to hold you and tell you that everything is going to be ok.

and i know i can find that in God. Abba father who called me His own, who loves me very much. i know.

it’s tough i guess, to go through a phase of life where you’re completely helpless and zero…and as i think about what’s ahead, the things i have to do, and looking at the way my body functions each day… i don’t know how things are going to work out. at times, i feel so tempted to call it quits.

and it’s in such times where i need God’s grace to come reign in me…

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