work

Im truly humbled by what we learnt in class today: about work.

This is what i came away from class thinking:

that our God, almighty and awesome, is a worker. God is a worker, and he enjoys watching me work/ study. Here’s the crunch! Who is man that God should be mindful of him, to place him above all the living creatures in this land, to put man on earth to “cultivate his land” as Dr Chew puts it. Who am i that God should be mindful of me, to put me in a position to be able to work, for his glory. what an awesome privilege it is.

well, i can’t help but think that i shld have responded in a more godly manner with my previous job. but yes, i pray that this would remain in my heart even as i go through school this wk. it’s 3 weeks to the examinations. and, yea, school has been such a “hamster in a wheel” experience, with nothing in particular tt i looked forward to… monotonous.but i guess, it’s not suppose to be like this. i pray tt my eyes will be unveiled to the reason why im in school.

creation

When i consider the work of Your fingers

the sun and the star

the land and the sea.

i start to wonder Almighty Creator,

just why You would ever take thought, of me.

healing broken communities

Awhile ago, I’ve been guilty of feeling grieved over an observable division in a community that I’ve grown to be part of. grieved because of the imperfections and undercurrents, even more so because of lack of transparency and openness within.

Today i’m truly encouraged and rebuked by the word, of a whole need to be humble. and that with humility, seeking God’s face and repentance, comes renewing and healing of broken communities. (2 Chron 7:14)

Too often we’ve been bystanders, pointing at imperfections which are so evident, yet we missed the point. Even in a more macro view, sometimes the church has pointed at the imperfections of society without realising that change begins with themselves. Similarly, I’ve forgotten the essence of this promise.

Even as i long for healing and unity in this little community of mine, there should be no need to feel helpless or despair, (yes they will come at times, but there’s no need for them.) My part, our part, is to humbly turn to God and pray. pray. allow God’s Holy spirit to shine His light upon me, upon us, so that we’ll still be salt and light even in difficult circumstances. wait, be patient and we can EXPECT renewing and healing. (man’s responsibility vs God’s sovereignty)

im quite amused by how one by one, God has led me to discover the right attitudes and responses i should take towards dealing with all of the struggles im facing with, be it through people or the word. surely it’s part His loving plan. and i’m ever more so grateful for this especially when sometimes I can be so full of myself and my thoughts that I don’t even know where to begin looking for the answers.

delivery guaranteed

the Lord has promised good to me

His word, my hope secures.

He will my shield, and portion be

as long as life endures.

My chains are gone, I’ve been set free

My God, My saviour,has ransomed me

and like a flood, His mercy reigns,

unending love, amazing grace.

Today, i recognize that i’ve been set free by grace and i pray that his word will be implanted so firmly in my heart, that whatever happens, i won’t be tempted to turn away, that whatever happens, i know God’s promises are true, dependable… and that alone is sufficient for me.

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school’s here

finally, after a whole 8 mth of rest and holidays, school’s here.

can’t believe it but better believe it, adapt, and prepare to study.

sigh. on some nights i just feel like going to bed early, so that when i wake up, it’s a new day, a better day…

so i don’t foresee writing so much anymore. so, good night! til tmr- a better day, perhaps.

Take the wheel

Jesus, take the wheel

take it from my hand,

cause i can’t do this, on my own

I’m letting go, so give me one more chance

save me from this road i’m on…

so, i passed my driving test today. (1st attempt!) finally, after all the lessons and the travelling to ubi in the mornings, all the demoralising situations where i mounted kerbs, knocked down a pole, strike kerbs, obstructed traffic on roads… and let me tell you smth ok? really only by grace from God that i could pass today.

firstly, i striked the kerb because i reversed too much for “directional change” but i wasn’t penalised for it at all. only a stern look and a “why you reverse so much for what?” secondly, i got the worse test route ever… the one that faces the heaviest traffic and biggest road, and and i wld have to remain on the left (say bye to ‘lame’ (lane) discipline) then filter into a different lane because of bus lane timings, all of that within a short distance. (thank God for the old taxi driver that gave way) hhaa, and the tester got frustrated halfway because  i think i asked too many silly questions. but at the end of it, i scored 18pts. 20 would have constituted me a failure.

anyway, if you didnt understand all of those, the bottomline is that my God is good. and i can count on Him to keep me safe on the roads. ( it’s quite a huge responsibility i think… thye made us watch this gory video abt consequences of irresponsible driving.) praise God!

i’m really happy! hopefully i will get to drive the car a bit before school starts on tues. and ya, perhaps driving a few months before i start attempting to drive other pple… hahah, i think driving on the highway is going to be interesting.

aged

Today, i came across this web which “age” photos. and so excitedly, i began to convert a few of them, especially the ones that we took at the fishing trip recently- reminds me of some old jetty with some kampong fishermen/women.

haha, im no expert at photoshop, don’t even own that program… but kudos to this website. makes me want to start my own art project!

http://labs.wanokoto.jp/olds

past

rain

wow, really unconventional and amazing! definitely brings choral presentation to a next level! looking forward to watching ONE’s performances!

Choir: Perpetuum Jazzile

rebel saved by God

It’s been a while. Too many things happened. Most of the things are what i term as “same-same”, no change. yet some are different. then again “same-same” might not be a good thing as well. i feel more distant than ever frm ppl, and it’s partly my fault for not making enough effort. yet, i know i can depend on the grace of God. school’s starting! can’t believe the months of holidays gone just like that. i think many people can agree that there’s a sense of “relieve” yet a whole 3/4 of me says “i wld rather go on having my long holiday!” new priorities. and this time it’s got to be seriously executed!

one more thing i discovered. i think ive nvr really acknowledged or seen myself as a person having a problem w authority and submission. ive nvr felt more like a rebel than ever. hahah, ya, im a scumbag. there. and if not for the preserving grace of God, i would have been seriously wasted and ive got a feeling i know how i would be like, and i don’t even want to begin to think abt it.